Monthly Archives: January 2012


I smashed it.

Into a million little pieces.


There is no place for you here.

I got the biggest hammer I could find, put it in a heavy duty trash bag and


I'm over it. It doesn't serve me. It's data I simply don't need.

118 127 162 157 145 146 148 134 125 173 92 153 100 130

Really, it is just a number, right?!

Yea right!“, is more like it.

If it was really just a number, it wouldn't cause your mood to change in a split second due to anything deemed “unacceptable” by you.

If it was really just a number, it wouldn't put instant thoughts of being “bad” or “good” into your mind, trying to determine your self worth and level of self control.

And, if it was really just a number, we wouldn't be so preoccupied with trying every “diet” and “trick” out there to try and move that number an itty bit lower, if only for a moment. The magazines with the salacious headlines claiming they [FINALLY have the ANSWER to help you lose those last 10 pounds for good] wouldn't sell.


So many of us have lost all logic and reasoning when it comes to the flat, square calculator we stand on {naked-after-going-to-the-bathroom-before-eating} – duh! It holds a prominent place in any bathroom in America and it doesn't like to be messed with – it WILL talk back.

I have decided to get rid of the very thing that has robbed me of my joy one too many times.

Never again is a number going to determine whether or not I'm going to have a good day or a bad day; eat the cookie or survive on coffee; love myself with reckless abandon or scrutinize every imperfection.

Never. Again.

I workout because I like to feel strong and alive, not because the scale told me that I'm fat.

I eat a cookie because I really want to enjoy it with someone I love; better yet, I want to connect with my daughter and laugh while we make our own from scratch using a new recipe I've been dying to try.

I wake up in the morning and love my body for what it does for me. I can do EVERYTHING I want to do. There is nothing holding me back. Truly.

The trendy magazines and fashion designers don't want me to believe that. I'm their prime demographic – they've got bills to pay! Sell! Sell! Sell! They stand in the middle of the room and stomp their feet like they're having a ginormous tantrum. Ad campains, fashion shows, anorexic models, designer this, on-trend that, look like this, do that, YOU too can have it ALL!


I'm not listening.


All I hear are the thoughts in my own head telling me I'm perfect and beautiful and loving and amazing just as I am TODAY!

Whataya know, in about a second, problem solved.

Scale, gone. Self-acceptance, in full effect. Check.

Of course I have goals. I want to be able to rock out in Dee's circuit class and not feel like I'm about to die (in the most amazing way ever) – promise! I want to have plenty of energy to keep up with Ella and whatever else life throws my way. I want to prevent disease and do the things I know will help me to LIVE a more productive life because I FEEL GOOD from the inside out.

I want to set a good example. Not only for Ella, but for the other women that I encounter that think they aren't worth it today, but 10 pounds from today. Why do we get together and complain about our thighs and hips? WHY do we do this???

I highly doubt I will look back on my life and wish I loved myself less. I do believe I will look back and realize how fabulous I really was. Why not realize that right now and go with it?

I am.

I am committed to not engaging in disparaging body talk with myself or anyone else.

I am committed to banishing the scale from my life FOREVER.

I am committed to accepting my body as God intended – who am I to question His creation?

I was given THIS BODY for a reason, and you were given YOUR BODY for a reason. If you want to make some lifestyle changes that will help you to rock through your day and zip up your jeans without lying down, GO FOR IT!

My only suggestion is this: instead of starting with a number, start with loving yourself just a little bit more today than you did yesterday.

It just might stick.

Do what you do, love YOU for YOU!


p.s. This post was inspired by the woman that helped to change my outlook on food and body image forver. You can check in with her here. Thanks Barb 😉



My Girl DEE!

Hello my lovelies.  I hope your weekend was fabulous!  I had a great weekend, thanks in part, to


Let me take you back to last Thursday.  I was having a great day until someone decided to


Ug.  Seriously, the nerve of some people.  I was going along happily in my “mommy” and “fitness angel” world.  Then –

BOOM!  Thunder, lightening, the works.  I went to bed that night feeling disappointed, sad, hurt, and not too motivated to follow-through with my plan to go yoga the next day.  I mean really, why do yoga when you can SULK?

Ok, did I really just say that??  Wow.

Thank GOD for DEE!!

Friday morning shows up as it always does.  I woke up with puffy eyes and a still-broken heart.  On top of that, Ella was not in a bouncy mood and ended up spilling a FULL GLASS of juice on the couch leaving EVERYTHING sticky.  Yes, loads of fun…

BUT, we made it through.  I dropped her off at school ON TIME (miracle) and headed home.  I had planned to text Dee saying I wasn’t going to make it.

But…I didn’t.

I stopped and asked myself what would be in


Yoga is good for the mind AND body…and, Dee, well, she’s kind of a big deal.  Why would I deny myself an hour with a total pro?  Who holds the power over your feelings?


I wasn’t in the mood for a sugary-sweet-let’s-all-hold-hands-and-sing-kumbaya yoga class.  I didn’t want to learn a new language, solve the world’s problems, or see how many ways I could contort my body (even though I AM very flexible).

I wanted to feel GOOD from the inside out, work hard, smile only if I really felt like it, and, most importantly, lift my mood by working my body.

I wanted something REAL.

I can assure you that it doesn’t get any more real than fabulous DEE!  She is one of the gems I’ve been lucky to find in the group fitness industry.  And, THE FIRM, the place you go to catch her rockin’ classes, is kind of like being transported to another planet – in a super COOL way.  There is a sign outside the yoga studio door that actually instructs people to keep their clothes on.  I know, it’s an awesome crowd.

With all this in mind, I decided to stay strong and get in my car and drive a quick 17 minutes to THE FIRM.  I easily found a parking spot and went inside.  I was greeted by Diva Doug (which always makes me happy – he’s adorable!) and made my way up to the white bright yoga studio.

I see Dee and I smile.  I’m already feeling better and I haven’t even moved one itty bitty muscle.  Its true, she has that effect on people.

I find a spot, roll out my mat and grab some weights – I get ready to WORK!

Class is intense.  As my friend Cara pointed out, it’s NO JOKE.  Only the strong survive (well, kind of…you just have to TRY…hard!)  Dee is fully aware of the intensity of her classes and she doesn’t apologize for it.  She knows she is making you STRONGER!  That’s why we go….right?!

I know, I know, there are a million group fitness classes out there that are really fun, and you might FEEL really good because you could do it in your sleep, but does your body actually CHANGE?

The answer is, no.

If you look around at the people in those classes, you don’t see bodies change.

That is because they do THE SAME THING every week.  It’s predictable.  Yes, a little predictability is a good thing.  It might be what YOU want or need.

But for me, right now, I am not interested in being predictable and comfortable.  I don’t want to know what’s coming next.  I want to get a little uncomfortable.  I want to know what I can do, as a 34 ½ year old wife, mother, teacher, friend, sister, daughter, WOMAN.  How strong am I?

This is why I smile when I see Dee.  I know that for the next 60 minutes I have a super smart fitness professional guiding me and encouraging me to do more today than I did yesterday.  I’m not in control, and I’m more than ok with that.  I trust that if I COMMIT to giving 110%, I will feel stronger.

And I do.

I wasn’t able to do every position flawlessly.  I lost my balance, took a break when I needed it, and got tired.  But I was there, giving it my all, doing my best.

The flow of the class kept me going; Dee’s strength inspired me.

In one hour all of the chaos from the night before was lifted.  The stress of the morning disappeared.  I reconnected with myself by working hard, and then a little harder.

It’s kind of amazing how your mind can follow your body if you let it.

As you begin your week, I encourage you to stay strong and [GO] for whatever it is.  Just go.  Getting there is half the battle.  Let the Dee in your life take care of the rest.

Peace and love xoxo

Let The Music Play

TGIF ya’all!

I thought I’d share some of the songs that have been powering me through




this week.

Enjoy and have a great weekend!

1. “Don’t Hold Your Breath” Nicole Scherzinger (MY FAVORITE!!!!)
2. “Roc Me Out” Rihanna
3. “No One” Alicia Keys
4. “Bizarre Love Triangle” (DJ Analyzer) Cary August
5. “Give Me Everything” DJ Shocker
6. “Let the Music Play” (David Delano) Oakenfold and Shannon
7. “Beautiful Life” (Jump Mix Edit) Jan Van Bass – 10
8. “E.T. Feels Starry Eyed” Kap Slap (free download!)
9. “I Wanna Go” Nicki Bliss (free download!)
10. “How Will I Know” Monkey Business & Danny Suko
11. “Best of You” (Hydraulic Vs E-Fact Remix) Foo Fighters (free download!)
12. “Rolling Sassy Against Me” Marc Johnce 

Side Note:  L.O.V.E. this one from Marc Johnce!!!!
13. “Lonely Boy” The Black Keys
14. “Big Girls Don’t Cry (Personal) Remix Fergie
15. “Mommy Complex” Peaches
*You can Google any of the song titles to find them – some are on itunes – many can be found for FREE!

Peace and Love xoxo

Somedays You Just Gotta

We are all pulled in a million directions each day. As a mom, I always feel like I should be or want to be in

five million places at once!

Yesterday was one of those days – I dropped Ella off at school and BAM! the countdown begins.

I have 6 precious hours to:





Blah, Blah, Blah.

I could have easily filled my time with chores…but I also wanted to pick up a few things at the mall that contribute to me feeling GOOD about myself (i.e. Peter Thomas Roth bronzer, cute jammies, and Caudalie Beauty Elixer), register for a run/bike event and go to yoga to breathe and renew.

So, the match-up was this:

Lady of the House vs. Lady of the Mall and the Mat

I chose Lady of the Mall/Mat.


Sometimes you just gotta pick one, and go with it.


And if you try, you will fail. A cycle of misery and guilt will ensue and you’ll end up getting less done and you’ll be less productive, not to mention you won’t FEEL good.

Ug, who needs that?

Laundry, bills, cooking and cleaning will always be there.

Someone will always need you.

What about YOU? YOU need YOU too!

So many people (including me) put off the things that would make them feel complete because something else always gets moved to the top of the list.

The top of my list rotates. Yesterday, a trip to the mall and the gym won. Today, I’ll be taking Ella to dance, cleaning, doing laundry, planning meals and grocery shopping.

Balance is such a good thing.

Be kind to you. Do that thing that you’ve been putting off – whatever it is.

Sometimes, you just gotta:

*run *see a movie *work *sip coffee *dance *eat *enjoy *GET THROUGH IT

…whatever it is, GO! Do it!

The minute you start to feel stress about the things that are not getting done,


It’s ok. It will get done. Trust me.

My laundry was waiting for me when I got home, as was a dinner to prepare, a kid to bathe and loads of putting away and tidying up to do.

The GREAT thing is, as I settled in to bed last night, I was so glad that I took the time to work hard in yoga and focus on strengthening my own practice for one hour.

The energy I received from that will definitely fuel me to be a better mama and domestic diva today.

Sometimes, you just gotta.

Peace and love ya’all xo

Pick Me Up!!

It’s getting to be about that time…the afternoon energy dive is nearing…I can feel it! I don’t care how hard you work to regulate blood sugar, for some of us, our days drive us to exhaustion at some point in the afternoon.

For me, it’s usually around 2pm.

Whataya know…

it’s almost time!

But hang on, I have the BEST PICK ME UP!

Enter, my trifecta of energy that I consume twice daily (one in the morning, 10ish, and one in the afternoon, 2ish). I seriously love this stuff.


Mix 32 oz water, 1-2 tablespoons apple cider vinegar and your favorite beverage (low calorie preferred) – I like eboost, Propel or Slimgenics “Thermoboost”.

I know, I know, I may have lost you at the “favorite beverage” part. Here’s the thing, a SMALL AMOUNT of one of those zero calorie packets is not going to hurt you.

I believe in balance.

My diet is not full of artificial ANYTHING. For ME, the benefits outweigh any negative effects of the little packet.

In case you are wondering, the MAJOR benefit I have noticed is my skin. It’s seriously insane how clear and lovely it is from drinking the vinegar. Not to mention I feel more balanced, hydrated and energized!

Oh, and the taste is great – with the 32 oz of water and flavored packet I hardly know its in there.

It doesn’t get much easier than that my friends.

I’m off to teach a little kickboxing tonight – quite certain I’ll have plenty of energy to kick just the right amount of booty xx

Drink up and rock on! ENERGIZE! xo

Ending Well

First off, welcome back Fitness Angel readers. I miss the process of WRITING
and the
required. I also miss
my experiences related to all things health and wellness, so…


If you are responsible for feeding anyone (yourself included) there is most likely a question that can ignite a plethora of thoughts that may include:

“I have no idea.”

“I don’t have the energy.”

“I need something NOW!”

“I already ruined my diet, screw dinner.”

If you are the FEEDER, you already know what the question is. If you are the FEEDEE, you are very lucky – be sure to kiss the hand that fed you today prior to shutting your sweet little eyes tonight, ok?

The question at hand is……..



OK, so here’s the deal. Dinner happens to be my favorite meal of the day. I force breakfast . Lunch is usually quick and easy and simply serves a purpose…get the job done.

But dinner….

I love dinner because I always spend it with those I love.


I am usually exhausted by the time dinner arrives and sometimes it is tough to get motivated to cook.

Here’s the other thing….

It’s EXTRA hard to get motivated to COOK when its just me and Miss Ella (age 5). It sometimes seems like a big hassle to PREPARE a REAL meal for JUST US?!?!

I give myself props though…9 times out of 10 I cook and prepare real food. It gives me energy and I feel so much better. Plus, the lesson Ella receives simply from WATCHING is undeniable.

Tonight, I share the EASIEST recipe on the planet – sweet and spicy salmon.


Sweet and Spicy Salmon

-rinse and dry 1 pound of salmon, place in baking dish skin side down
-spray the salmon with cooking spray or a light coating of your favorite cooking oil
-rub 1 tablespoon of brown sugar onto the top of the salmon
-sprinkle chili powder on top of the brown sugar (approx. 1 teaspoon)

it will look like this:

-bake in a 425 degree oven for 15-20 minutes, just until the fish flakes apart


Happy GIRL!

Ella requested cooked carrots (I always have carrots on hand) and the bread was homemade from a few days ago. It was a super yummy end to the day.


As a side note, I also have days where, in my mind, I’ve “ruined” eating for the day because cake was served after lunch or an extra latte was had in the afternoon. Sometimes you feel “off track” by the time dinner arrives and you might be tempted to…
….throw in the towel….


You CAN get it together at the end of the day regardless of what the previous 10 hours have held.

~ PREPARE a nutritionally dense meal that you FEEL GOOD about

~DRINK the magic apple cider vinegar drink *see next post*
(instant pick-me-up and AWESOME detoxifier)

~GIVE yourself a break and a little positive self talk

A new opportunity for ENERGY and HEALTH



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